~ LifE$cRipT ~

tis bloody june is finally ending…yea manz…it had been a fateful mth yea…

nth much to blog todae…sianz…

My Love - Westlife

An empty street, an empty house
I hold inside my heart
I’m all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)

And all my love, I’m holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems soo far

Chorus:
Soo I say it in a prayer
And hope my dreams will take it there
Where the skies are bule, the sea is once again… my love.
All the seasons coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, the sea is once again… my love.

I try to read, I know the work
I left them with my friends
But I can’t stop to keep myself from thinking. (oh no)
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)

And all my love, I’m holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems soo far

Soo I say it in a prayer
And hope my dreams will take it there

work was tirin todae..mayb coz i din haf enuf slp ba…wil slp earli todae..juz hope tt i wil b able to slp onli..yea..the goods r sellin well manz..phew…haha…

sometimes..some tgs cant juz b judged by words…actions tell it all…& sometimes even actions maynt b real…so…1 tg..juz believe in yaself yea..

i tried hard to belive myself..2 regain my faith in everytg..mayb i juz cant do so completely ba.. coz great hopes r often met wif great disappoinments…so i rather nt tink so much or juz stop tinkin… i rather keep quiet den sae anytg else ba..sumtimes or mani a times..its better to shut up b4 u start 2 ruin tgs or mk tgs even worse…

….lost 4 words agn… lost in my tots agn… lost in the cross-street agn …. lost everywhere agn …

i tink workin is great ba esp when u r realli realli damm bz…great…tts y i always love bz bz jobs…bt provided i haf the energy to do it…haha..i always lyk to work myself to a pt when i tot i can die…haha..when i m sot..lolx..

haf been happy wif you ..yea..

* am sproutin rubbish agn *

ar..tis june haf been eventful..cant wait for it 2b over…

weird tgs happened…stressful tgs popped up…sad tgs brewed..yea…hope july wilb great yea…

work…haf been sian so far…coz weekdaes v few ppl mah..sianz…duno leh..they asked me to tk over on 11july…i duno wan help nt…feel lyk helpin but…haiz…haiz..& i duno how to reject..i alrd feel v gulity rejectin the whole offer le…i m realli soft-hearted ba…

i noe i haf nt totally gotten over my past..i duno when it wil cum..i juz noe it wil cum…i m realli sorri tt i m moody sumtimes coz of it…i realli m sorri..realli…haiz…i can b easily affected ba in a sense..i can oso b damm sensitive..& my mind nt onli run wild…it run rocket mad at times too… guess i mayb too complicated to understand yea? haha…i duno..humanz…sumtimes i realli dun understand…

saw mani cute kids lately…haha..esp those jap de…coz am workin in a jap environment…nt bad ba those japs..haha…my jap boss din cum todae…whee!!! haha…

i need a jacket…a sch sling bag…pencil case….mayb wallet…sum xtra new clothes…4 uni….$$$..haha….bobian…well…shall slowly shop 4 it…haha…i love doin tt…

* time mayb the healer of all wounds , time may prove everyting but time oso changes mani tgs…tts when insecurity come in ba.. *

watched england vs ecuador match yest…omg…beckham is the man sia…haha…he fired england to the top 8 … haha…

Yellowcard - Only One

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can’t, I can’t pick up the pieces
And I’ve thrown my words all around
But I can’t, I can’t give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there’s just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can’t, I can’t hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can’t, I can’t get up when you’re gone

And something’s breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won’t walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there’s just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there’s just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

work work work…kinda shag frm work…+ WC … bt gd la… work keeps my mind off alot tgs..gd in a sense…bt it sort of mk me more short-tempered… haix…sian…kinda drained…duno wad to write..lolx..mayb even b writin rubbish….

i tink i sux in pink…& irritatin..lolx…kekez

mayb ltr den blog agn ba…juz hm nt lng ago…

started work aft a lng hiatus..lolx…as a promoter at orchard…ar..promotin sum jap yam thingy..lolx…nt bad la…todae so far so gd..juz kinda bz nia…tink weekends wilb v jialat le…

haiz…i tink i can nv understand them…2 of the closest ppl to me…haiz…mayb i failed to show tt i cared agn…haiz..i m so god damm tired frm work todae…& all sort of funni smses mk me pengz…haiz…sianz…makin me short-tempered oso..coz i tink i can nv ever clear the misunderstandins ba..NEVER LE BA..suan le ba…i m too tired to xplain le… if u cant get it,4get it…. i nv meant it.. for so mani yrs le…i tot the frenshp was solid…but i tink nt realli or nt…there wun b so mani doubts….tts y i sae suan le…

…parents…regardin tt…i m sorri..haiz..its nt a phobia k 4 ya info..it wun b forever…its nt tt i dun tk ya words 4 real..its nt tt i dun tink u r nt the one..its nt all those craps..i sux ba..tts the ans… i sux .

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england match on tis sun ! yipee ! seriously,i hope they will win dou owen is out..pray tt he wil recover well ba…

lately v sianz…reali sianz..end of june…haiz…

hope my promoter job wil run smoothly ba…juz 11 daes nia leh..they askin me go TM do oso..$10 mor per dae & sumore so near my hse…lolx…but TM…dun realli lyk workin there ba..haha…c how ba…was tinkin of askin one more ppl pei me go TM promote de..but the pay slashed half..& they sae not worth it le…duno …

i m shag agn..haha….duno y..mood r so so damm blue lately..

* dun forget me *

yawns..i m realli tired..i mean as in sleepy…i wan 2 z aft bloggin … din slp the entire nite yest…was juz chattin & chattin..haha… at 1st i wanna leave at 4am den the nxt time i looked at the clock its lyk ard 7am liao..pengz.. i m realli talkative manz or izit there r too mani tgs to chat le…haha.

startin a promoter job tml…abit scared…aiya is lidat de..everytime b4 i start a job..i m always lyk tt..those jitters..haiz..guess i m realli timid at times yea…bt tis is onli 4 lyk 11 daes..so stil ok la..sian..haf to start 2 wake up earli le..yawns * agn!! * ..den my WC how??? argh ! c how le lo..bobian…bt i wil die die watch england & germany matches still ..lolx…

i noe…i m realli disappointin ba..esp mani tgs i did in the past..i noe its all in the past bt it did happened & i cant deny facts.. yea… suan le ba… bt i tink in the end..everytg & everyone is stil doin great & well..so yup..No harm done.. =)

stomach vweird sia..tt pizza i ate juz now was realli filling manz..yawns … i go rest le.. i m such a sleepyhead… yawns

i noe nth i sae can explain my actions..i noe i m damm complicated…mayb i m v hard-hearted too..haiz..i’m sorri..juz shocked y u did tt too..bt its ok…everytg’s over le…try nt 2 do it agn yea..i oso wun..

..saw ger & eng match yest..great one for ger..bt argh…4 eng..v wasted..they shld had won manz..realli…they shld go do sth to their defence…all the best! go go go!!!! lolx…

* lost *

shld i  juz teach tuition or work part time neh? argh..duno…tuition earns abit mor money..much shorter hrs..bt to me…kinda sian…n the stress is reali great on me i tink …n it maynt b v stable oso..those normal part time..u earn abit lesser… more irregular & lnger hrs…abit mor stable…& less stress & mayb more enjoyable if u get to mit gd ppl yea…lols..sian…i slowly tink tru ba….haiz..

sian..had a sian dae…bt luckily,it ended up stil quite ok…thanks manz ! i appreciate it..realli…thanks.. =)

…..duno y..feel realli slpy & shag lately…can almost slp anywhere i go..haha…world cup…mayb partly due to me watchin it ba… ar..how i wish to noe how kaka realli look on tv…lolx..heard tt he is v shuai..so far those pics i c r nt bad yea bt…mmm..i muz ‘inspect’ 1st..hahahaha…

….mayb i ain’t gt any sense of secruity…mayb i lost it lng ago & is havin a hard time of retrievin it back…mayb i m v selfish to b so…bt my hauntin past…its nt tt i hate my past…i dun regret it…i nv will…bt bt bt..juz dun remind me of it if there’s supposed to b  a fresh start… the strength & the power …its all in the mind….

….darn shag lately over those uni tgs…n it seem tt my health is realli going on the downhill…haiz..its ok…

juz treat me as a god damm senstive freak ba…i m fine wif it yea..

i mean no harm…i m nt angry…i m juz god damm drained…if u cant get it…forget it…

haha..back hm nt lng ago after watchin england vs T & T….disappointin 1st half…goaless for both sides..den the openin of the 2nd half oso so sian lor..lolx..but at the last 10mins..crouch & gerrard were the hero manz…lolx..lampard’s mutiple shot on the goalpost r all missed or saved sia..omg…really happie tt england & germany made it to the top 16 le !! heez.. !

….shag sia lately..argh…gg bonkers….

* u r back tml !! hee *