Archive for July, 2006

surpRISES !!!

Monday, July 31st, 2006

oh wow…todae is my 1st dae of sch..lolx..nt bad..though i m shAG ! i gt quite alot of surprises though…enuf to shock me 4 the whole dae…lolx..

1st : i met my sec sch fren,shahilah…so glad tt i met her or nt it gonna b so borrrring tru out the dae alone..aft sch ..she drove me & es hm… thanks alot gal ! =)

2nd : i realised tt my 3rd sem lecturer is actualli the dad of my jc fren…same CG sumore..lolx..well..shock shock…

3rd : i met a lot of tp-jcians !!! mostly frm marketing ba…but stil am glad 2 c sum familiar faces ard yea… i tot i wilb an alien there initially..kekez..

4th : its a TOP secret !! lolx… =)

overall..sch haf been nice…i m so foreign in my course sia ( econs & finance )…gonna work harder le… i wil de..

…. aug is coming…my mum’s bdae !!! i almost forgot due to my forgetfulness & bz-ness lately … heng i recalled it at perlini yest when we bought the 2nd ring..its such a niceeeeeeee ring…lolx..thanks baby…. watched nacho libre yest…kinda funni & heartwarming too… =)

* hope life wil always b filled wif nice surprises =P *

…i wan 2 hibernate ! ! !

Saturday, July 29th, 2006

…lately..i haf been so slpy…wan 2 slp every moment away sia…yawns..appetite haf been great these few daes…seem lyk i m preparin well 4 hibernation hor..waha..zZZZZZZZZZZ.

..went sentosa yest…fun..no sun…lolx…& well,dear rem to brin ya ********* nxt time ok ? haha…

thanks pal 4 helpin me solve tt maths qn..u r great sia…waha..& ya..thanks 4 the treat…which is nan de rite u sae..lolx…. nata de co co is BIG & FLESHY hor ??? Rem wad u said abt tis 4ever ar…haha..i wil haunt U on tis.. i esp love the mango pudding at the end of da meal… sorri tt i seem i so sian & tired lately.. even me myself, i duno Y.. yea.. cya in sch yea .. =)

….duno y..seem to b havin mood swings lately…mayb its coz of my addiction 2 nostalgia & phobias ? lolx… rite now..i m onli lookin forward to sch reopening… worried abt it rite now.. mayb coz its a new environment , new ppl , new challenges ba… mayb its all unfounded ba… i juz hope tgs wil juz run smoothly ba frm now on… life haf been lyk a rough sea in da past …

a nice song by li ji zhe ( 1 of my fave singers ) =)

再见 ~ 李玖哲   

电话还在响我有些心慌
熟悉的号码在挣扎
故作的坚强虚伪的力量
撑过这一刻更悲伤
没接的电话是一种惩罚
不该想却割舍不下
如果再见我你能说什么
说爱我或只是寂寞
原谅我冷漠选择不联络
因为我担心你会听见我
还那么难过
短讯声在响凌晨两点半
惊醒的房里更孤单
一句睡了吗像你的习惯
这夜晚为你而混乱
因为对你我连再见都

说不出口
我想你能懂爱还在心中

another nice song..i haf been searchin 4 tis 4 a lng time & i found it !!

台风 ~ 台风 ( toro’s band )

刚刚发布了海上台风警报
我不能阻止你去爱
时间慢慢的将你我漂浮起来
湿湿的水气雨却下不来
庙宇的交杯一点点未来
顽固的双双对对覆盖
输给了时间放弃了争辩
等待着移动的暴风圈
骄傲一点吧我沉默的喊
我撑着没让眼泪掉下
微笑就走吧把你还给他
风雨忽然在我们之间落下
绞紧的手指很奇特的苍白
黄昏的天空只剩一片红
能记着的快乐都细细小小的
怎么告诉他你那些习惯
风越过了山河岸拉起了警戒线
看着人潮在撤退沙包堆满了街
最后的时间我们越分越远

a song which touches my heart …

爱情树 ~ 张智成

我不要你在我身边
却看着蓝天
不看我的脸
我但愿你快乐的飞
将来要相爱
都还有时间
风开始在吹
孤独好直接
爱最苦的是不能相依偎
然而我会等着你你
回来的季节
我的爱情是一棵树
永远不会离开一步
风雪多残酷
我想我挺得住
我的生命是一棵树
只愿成为你的归宿
我义无反顾
守护你是最大的幸福
最深的温柔是成全
我张开双臂
任凭你来回
最痛的时候就思念
扎了根的心
不可能撤退
风开始在吹
孤独好直接
爱最苦的是不能相依偎
然而我会等着你
回来的季节
我的爱情是一棵树
永远不会离开一步
风雪多残酷
我想我挺得住
我的生命是一棵树
只愿成为你的归宿
我义无反顾
从日落到日出~oh~
我的爱情是一棵树
永远不会离开一步
风雪多残酷
我想我挺得住~oh~
我的生命是一棵树
只愿成为你的归宿
我义无反顾
守护你是最大的幸福

trust tt u r the one,trust tt u r the sunshine aft da rain,trust tt he has no other 1,trust tt u r onli wad he ever want,haf the faith n treat him well,forget ya past & heed ya frens’ advice for wad they sae r deemed as truth,touch his heart lyk how he touches urs,the bond tt keep da both of u wil onli b strengthen if the faith remains wif no distractions.Painful memories r meant to b lessons of the past,nt 2b a stain in ya present,a barrier to a better future.Mark my words & haf no doubts..tt he is true & onli wan U. No one will dare 2 disturb if both r strong-minded enuf… no one wun,i wun , we will wish well, so do I … here i end the speech wif an open mind,directed 2 every1 out there who is tryin hard to secure his/her faith . =) 

* stay so *

….unidentified…

Wednesday, July 26th, 2006

….yohoo…back hm frm work…my last dae in iras…my sup ( wilson ) asked if i wil wan work at their dept agn…haha..my heart ans is no ba..bt i told him i wun mind…lolx..n omg…they wan me to return agn to return em their notes & files..omg…haha..was tokin to another sup (siewping) yest… i realised…they lyk to gossip too…waha ! gonna miz all of em .

…i cant belive wad i read….pengz..let me b blind…

…life lately haf been well…chaotic…yea..dun wanna create more trouble 4 myself or anyone anyway…but frm now on..i wil try 2 keep tgs to myself ba… i wun breathe a word abt anytg more….i m practically killin myself….

* drained *

…..tml is my last dae

Wednesday, July 26th, 2006

tml is my last dae at iras..haiz..abit sad…it was nice workin there actualli…nth much to write todae..shag..yea..once agn..gt tuition agn tml…cant wait 4 sch to reopen..

= can u juz stop all these hu si luan xiang ? =

= can u dunb so sensitive ?=

= y cant u try understand more? =

= can u dun b sian so easily ?=

= can u stop being so rash ?=

= can u dun always tink i m leavin? =

= can U ? =

= mayb i can nv sastify u ba =

* argh ! *

…worn out…

Tuesday, July 25th, 2006

…argh…i m damm damm tired..had a lng lng dae todae..i quit iras le..finally..my last dae is wed..waha! aiya..dun realli wanna describe my lng sian dae anyway..nt interestin de..

…lately…i m overload..overload wif mani tgs & wild tots..damm me…mayb when i m tired..my imagination wil b fuelled ba… kekez….

a stubborn old fool

a silly naive gal

tts me…

am i neglecting ppl in my life ??? mayb ba.. but no matter… i keep em in my heart …  =)

Eminem~When I’m Gone

Yeah…
It’s my life…
My own words I guess…

[Verse 1]
Have you ever loved someone so much, you’d give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?

When they know they’re your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm ‘her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?

And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain?
…blah..

[Chorus]
And when I’m gone, just carry on, don’t mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I’m looking down on you smiling
And I didn’t feel a thing, So baby don’t feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I’m gone, just carry on, don’t mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I’m looking down on you smiling
And I didn’t feel a thing, So baby don’t feel my pain
Just smile back…

[Verse 2]
I keep having this dream, I’m pushin’ Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don’t want me to sing
..blah..
I look up, it’s just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin’ walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear ‘em
They’re saying "You’ve got one more chance to do right" - and it’s tonight

Now go out there and show that you love ‘em before it’s too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It’s turns to a stage, they’re gone, and this spotlight is on
And I’m singing…

[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they’re throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They’re screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don’t believe what I’m seeing
"Daddy it’s me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,"
But baby we’re in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren’t leavin’
"You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad
"And I bought you this coin, it says ‘Number One Dad’
"That’s all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin
"I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are going"
But baby wait, "it’s too late Dad, you made the choice
"Now go out there and show ‘em that you love ‘em more than us"
That’s what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin’ your name
It’s no wonder you can’t go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn’t see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That’s when I wake up, alarm clock’s ringin’, there’s birds singin’
It’s Spring and Hailie’s outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..

[Chorus]

[Curtains closing and sounds of footsteps]

* i hate cia.. *

…close encounter

Sunday, July 23rd, 2006

..my pal saw her on a bus.. omg.. beware of her sia..she realli seem fierce.. i guess her memory is realli gd 2 rem her juz aft an encounter.. she is sumone nt to b trifled wif ba…. phew…lolx.. i dun wish tt i wil c her agn..in case,she try 2 do anytg funny agn.. well, past r past…wun gif a damm .

ar..tml gt work & tuition…wad a lng & sianz dae..haiz .

juz discovered a new nice song by will pan.. yippie !

谢谢 ~ 潘玮柏

黄昏下的琴键太寂寞
来来去去只剩很拙的双手
陪着固执的我
不停弹奏不停地犯错
想起他为你唱歌时的温柔
我会笑着难过
他能给你保护代替我的照顾
这是我最后的祝福
谢谢你的结束冷却后的残酷
谢谢你的知足告诉我别再付出
谢谢你的温度记忆留在最初
谢谢你曾让我幸福
不停唱着愈来愈清楚
想起你看他眼神中的满足
我学会了服输
我只能偷偷地为你祝福
想着手心的感触
想着脸颊的温度
谢谢你那些年为我付出

谢谢你曾让我们幸福

* 面壁思过 *

…STOP

Saturday, July 22nd, 2006

…omg omg.. juz in 1 dae (yesT) my life suddenli becum so hectic.. flooded wif calls & gt a new assignment on…dou i dun haf a gd omen abt it..but bobian.. my words r out . i cant tk it back .yesh  ….. i am reckless i noe .lets hope tgs wil b fine…

….i nv meant 2 hurt u  yea… i juz tot i was left wif no room 2 breathe last 2 nites or so…pls juz stop wild accusations .. i noe my attitude ain’t any better… yes my temper is nt xactly mild yea esp when i m angry… i wil nt hide it.. haiz…sorri …

been so tired lately..tt i dun even haf da energy 2 blog properly or do other tgs lyk readin my book !!!!!!!! GOSH…it haf been 2-3 daes since i last read it le… i dun care…i wil read sum of it tonite… i muz.. hee…

Promise ~ Simple Plan ( 1 of my all-time favie )

Breakdown
I can’t take this
I need somewhere to go
I need you
I’m so restless
I don’t know what to do

Cause we’ve had a rough times
From fighting all night
And now you’re just slipping away

So just give me this chance
To make the wrongs right, to say:
Don’t don’t don’t walk away

* chorus *

* I promise
I won’t let you down (you down)
If you take my hand tonight
I promise
We’ll be just fine, this time
If you take my hand tonight
If you take my hand tonight  *

Without you I go through the motions
Without you it’s just not quite the same
Without you I don’t wanna go out
I just wanted to say

That I’m sick of these fights
I’ll let you be right
If it stops you from running away

So just give me this chance
To make the wrongs right, to say:
Don’t don’t don’t walk away

* chorus *

Take my hand
Take my hand
I promise
Take my hand
I promise
Take my hand

I promise
I won’t let you down (you down)
If you take my hand tonight
I promise
We’ll be just fine, this time
If you take my hand tonight
If you take my hand tonight
I will break you down
So take my hand tonight

…yawns… i stil need go tuition ltr..kuku de… yawns… sian…hope evertg shall b alrite… duno wad 2 write le… gonna rush..

* argh… kill ME *

************************************************************************

yoz…back hm & bathed le..wa.. god damm hungry but juz now no appetite so nv go buy food..but now… haix.. nvm..i juz eat snacks…

was late 15mins 4 tuition juz now..xueyun is her name…omg…omg…she is the opp of yvette…i swear..they r xtremes of the range…waha…she is realli hardworkin & serious..while cutie is sort of a slacker & luv foolin ard…she is sooo quiet while cutie is so cheerful & bubbly…lolx..i lyk da both of em…but xueyun..i dun tink she realli need tuition..she is realli clever…omg..

it seem lyk its gg to rain…but wait… i wan go beach ltr !!  how???? pls dun…rain rain go away,cum agn another dae..unless u r RAIN ( tt korean hunk ) kekez..lol…

* When I’m Gone *

…waha!

Thursday, July 20th, 2006

…suddenli..i cant wait 4 school to start agn…argh…i haf been holidaying lyk 4….8mths??? & now…here i m…reduced 2 a pack of lazybones…lolx…waha…but school is startin in ard 2 weeks time..hope it wil b smooth & fulfilling ba..wonderin if i shld join a cca as well …hmm…. ?_?

…went 2 work 4 half a dae todae…abit boliao but those calls todae…well…kinda weird lorz…tis rest of da wk, i ‘ll b workin le lorz..yawns.i feel tired.

…i swear i wil pay or do anytg 2 see you agn..2 noe how u r doin…tk care yea.

now back hm…2nd half of my blog as i con’t …

i duno wads wrong….everytime when tgs r fine..juz 1 word or xpression can ruin everytg…haix..wtf…

am god damm tired & drained..dun feel well too..haix..juz let me die sia..argh

* siANZ *

….i stil love outdoor activities !!

Wednesday, July 19th, 2006

lolx…went biking todae…was realli nice…haha…cycled for 3 hrs…kinda sunny too…kanna abit of sunburnt oso..overall…FUN !!!! & i tink i seriously need a good workout too…it haf been a lng lng time since i last work out properli le…yea… oso went 2 climb da spider web…adventurous ~! hee… i realised tt my passion 4 outdoor stuffs r stil there manz.. way to go manz… waha !

…kinda tired now…lolx…tml gt work at 1pm…sianz…

it takes 1 mistake to ruin everytg…it takes 1 person 2 brin dw the other…it takes 1 dumb ego 2 hurt others… learnin to cherish… learnin to love… learnin to forget the wrong tg … learnin to rem the correct tg ….. communication is darn impt.. if u r someone who can communicate well..den life wilb much easier on u yea…i guess so… if there’s a barrier..well,everytg juz get blocked…if there’s a misunderstandin…both parties r at fault…but if left uncleared…regrets wil breed…haiz

haix…………….. juz received my new hp bill…it xploded agn tis mth…straight 2 mths it haf been capulating…omg..i m gg broke frm payin all these dumb bills frm starhub dou i noe i m the 1 solely responsible…lolx.. fine .

* i await da nxt one *

…dead man’s chest

Tuesday, July 18th, 2006

…watched pirates of the carribbean - dead man’s chest - todae…nt bad la…kinda action-packed…orlando bloom is stil such a cutie..hunkie..lolx…its kinda sad 2 noe wad realli happen 2 captain davie jones’ heart…i noe…mani ppl wil do anytg 4 love ba…haha…mayb i alrd lost the capacity & courage to do so lng ago?? lolx..

….aft readin ya blog…. it seems lyk u haf nt 4get da past v well… mayb even i oso cant help u 2 do so.. sorry .

mayb even myself..i m nt on a v gd way 2 recovery ba..sumtimes..flashes juz cum back by itself… i lost my love,my best fren..was used & told the truth…all in the same nite juz b4 my olvls 1st practical paper…yea… i lost sanity frm then onwards ba… aftermath events juz mk everytg worse 4 me..lolx..tinking back…i onli got 1 word… HELL .

mayb i shld nt haf write so much ba… juz venting sum tots…pls dun compare yaself 2 him ba…lyk the way i treat him & u… sorri…i m realli sorri…but i m a different me in da past & present… mayb u wil nv understand my pt but its alrite… no 1 realli understand too… even me myself..i wonder too .

tml gg to cycle…hope it wun rain ba..god bless !

..lolx…yvette’s parents gave me durians ( 1 of my fave fruits) & rambutans !! omg…thanks manz..

………* lost in the transit of my tots * ………………….