~ LifE$cRipT ~

…y is there onli 24 hrs per dae ????i need more time !! i cant seem to haf enuf time for mani mani tgs !!argh ! kekez..i noe its my fault bt let me complain & lament for a moment…. i need to get it off my head ! lol…if i can buy time…i dun mind being a bankrupt… research sch work tests argh blah blah blah…r all piling up & the weight r practically asphyxiating me ! bt can cope la..i muz cope…i need to organise my time better…tink i wil fall sick soon… damm heavy rain todae sia…i was drenched frm head to toes… diaox .

mani tgs seemed to haf happened lately…end of aug,sept is coming soon le wor..time realli flies sia…in a twinkle of an eye ,8 mths of 2006 r gone. woosh..i cant wait for 2007 then. yup..i noe broken trust & promises r the bane of all r/s & its effects r as xpected,detrimental to the r/s… it tks time to rebuild it but mani a times..mani ppl juz fail to do it or simply gif up le . bt wad i always blive is tt , no matter wad, as lng as 2 persons r in love , there’s nth tt cant b revived . forgiveness is the key to unlock barriers to solving conflicts & love is the medicine to hurt . & i realli hope promises made SHOULD NEVER EVER BE BROKEN . if u realli love tt someone , care for his/her feelings, promise wad u wil do & wad u wont do , dun keep repeatin the same mistakes . the nxt time,u wun b forgiven agn & everytg wilb gone coz the disappointment may juz haf an edge over the love the person haf 4 u .

kekez..i no time stil can write so much..lolx…juz doin sum reflections nia…alrite..shalb slpin soooooooooonnnnn…i willllllllll….

* if the past haf nv existed in such a way , wil i b the same me now ? *

lol…gotten my txtbks todae…but nt yet start revision..coz gt tuition mah…kekez…

todae’s new local lecturer mr daniel tan is great manz…funni guy…if nt for his lame lame jokes…i would b half way aslp tru lecture le…  =)

mayb attaining what i thought i want most or or prove the most challenging is 1 of the highest pleasures of all but the toll it takes on me is practically draining my entire life away in a subtle way silently… BUT .. i grew to realise..the things tt u wan most in life mayb juzb lyin rite in front of u…its juz tt u din tk much notice of it or simply dun bother to care too much abt it… as ya attention span is all upon ‘unattainable’ subjects… i realised tt i neglected mani tgs i shld haf appreciate ard me… perfectionist as i m…bt i shld oso b practical… life’s imperfect… i accept tt . i learnt to cherish wad i haf.. coz tgs in life dun happen by chance…they happened 4 a reason . painful lessons r nt a stain in ya memories… they r ladders 4 u to climb to a higher stage where u beta understand yaself & life & to deal wif life & reality . if u cant get over it..it simply means u r nt strong enuf to climb up the ladder to a better future . time tells it all…. it tests ppl’s character & resilience .

i neglected my precious studies in the past..i wun do it agn.. i wan a gd career in the future which i can b proud of…& tt cant juz b relied solely on a piece of paper aka CERT … it takes much more than tt… knowledge vs wisdom… knowledge is nth if u dun apply it to a gd cause . tts wad i learnt . =)

…….. * if there’s a will, there’s a way =) * ………….. * tis i promised u *

kinda stressed wif sch lately…so mayb sprouting rubbish everytime & everywhere….BULLSHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe i aint useless,no1 is…but i noe some tgs i do/did wil always b deemed as worthless…. even if u had put in ya best effort…even if you haf no expectations,u wil juz lose everytg…u wil juz b asked to forget everytg lyk a robot…

duno wan go revise nt ltr…nt much mood & conc supposedly…so yea..c how ba..lazy sundae it is…hope tml yvette dun change tuition here n there le…v mafan to me… kekezzzzz .

sum tgs r stupid sumtimes….dun enter into a world where u noe u willb shot dw there manz… keep in mind . theres no pt holdin on to ppl who doesnt even care much abt u …. but sumtimes tgs r easier said than done . haiz

i wun b a burden or a fuss . i wil juz shut up & get lost . i aint angry coz i nv will wif regards to tt . no way . but i wilb fine . =) all the best . u juz killed me literally…bt fate is cruel,life is lidat…i cant force nature .

{ 专程来告别 连再见都心不在焉   
  你在一公尺不到的面前
  手拼命挥还是往下坠
  眼神那么绝 冻结一切不让我挽回
  我在一公尺之外的世界
  一辈子回不了的原点
  我这才发现 你离我有多么远  }

{  你给的眼神好比 大热天里一道冷空气
    我是真的真的真的很爱你 以为付出了一切就非得有意义
    你给的难题 我不曾逃避 谁叫我已爱你成性 }

* 冷风过境 * all i can rem is the gift heaven gave me which is the present - tts wad i wan n wil do *

penny is gg disneyland for attachment…gd luck n all da best !! bon voyage =)

had a ‘farewell’ dinner/supper wif my sec sch frens yest…as PT is leaving to usa le… ate hokkien mee… saw a lot of ppl tt i din c 4 sumtime le… & every1 seem to b leading a new life now…& most uni frens r juz realli bz & stressed abt their new lifestyle… i am too.. guess will tk more tk to adapt ba… so lets jiayou tog =) … mani ppl still look the same…lolx… tink the nxt outing willb mths ltr ba..haha…. everyone is so bz i guess .

argh…my throat is still kinda bad….sian…nth seem to help it..had a damm stupid dream last nite…well…nt stupid..but lame…dreamt tt i was in a camp…rainin lyk hell…blah…den gt wad race aft tt…& i had to roll dw frm the high end to the lower end of some sort of cliff at a beach…siao…den ltr some1 told me calamasi = sugarcane….no way…lol..i drink b4 lor..cfm nt wad sugarcane…haha….dreams…i love havin it at times…super funni …

……….tests r coming but i haven study yet…omg…wth…

…life’s weird… i tink there’s no pt in hidin one trueself…juz show it out..& everyone will haf an ez-ier time ba…its nt a crime to hide but its a chore to hide ba… well… tts juz a reflection bah…

….heard jay new song qian li zhi wei le…a collaboration wif fei yu qing…well…muz listen more often to adapt to the latter..haha…but i love tis song..kinda soothing…stil nt bad.. but i tink i still prefer ye qu,last yr 1st single..lol…jay…i lyk all his albums..frm the 1st till now…let me do a recollection ….hmm… frm his 1st album my faves r  - 黑色幽默 - 龙卷风 - 星晴 .

frm fantasy.. - 开不了口 - 安静 - 爸我回来了 .

frm 八度空间 … - 半岛铁盒 - 最后的战役 - 爷爷泡的茶 .

frm 叶惠美 … - 晴天 - 以父之名 - 爱情悬崖 .

frm 七里香 .. - 七里香 - 借口 - 擱淺 - 園遊會 .

frm 十一月的萧邦 …- 夜曲 - 黑色毛衣 - 一路向北 - 漂移 .

bside all tis i stil love other songs…lolx…lazy to write le..kekez…but i m lookin forward to his new album lor… i need some new songs in my mp3 le…!!!

lyrics of 千里之外 :

屋檐如悬崖 风铃如沧海 我等燕归来

时间被安排 演一场意外 你悄然走开 故事在城外

浓雾散不开 看不清对白 你听不出来 风声不存在 是我在感慨 梦醒来

是谁在窗台 把结局打开 那薄如蝉翼的未来 经不起谁来拆

我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白 沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱 我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在 琴声何来 生死难猜 用一生 去等待

闻泪声入林 寻梨花白 只得一行 青苔 天在山之外 雨落花台 我两鬓斑白 闻泪声入林 寻梨花白 只得一行 青苔 天在山之外 雨落花台

我等你来 一身琉璃`白 透明着尘埃 你无瑕的爱 你从雨中来 诗化了悲哀 我淋湿现在 芙蓉水面采 船行影犹在 你却不回来 被岁月覆盖 你说的花开 过去成空白

梦醒来 是谁在窗台 把结局打开 那薄如蝉翼的未来 经不起谁来拆

我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白 沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱 我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在 琴声何来 生死难猜 用一生 去等待

yup..his new songs include 抽离 , 我的伦理 & 绘梦之卷 . i tink so la…

* mayb mani tgs haf changed.. but i m stil me *

^ The most stinging words are said most for your benefit and are also the truest words. ^

…..sian…life is so sian lately…haiz…no tuition todae…& my abdominal pain is killing me… but still, life is realli impt & shldb cherished.. pls dun joke wif ya life.. its impt… if u cant love yaself ,u cant love anybody else…so pls rem the promise & pls pls pls…rem self-importance…no1 can help u if u yaslef r pulling yaself dw…. i m nt god… i m nt perfect… i m sorry .

anyway i m nt angry abt tt bbq tg….  juz a small thingy anyway . i din flare up..i m juz shocked abt ya rxn . tts all .

2 me : 生命有如马不停蹄的时间, 命运有如变幻莫测的天气 . time waits for no man . we juz gt to live wif the hustles & bustles of life while dealing wif changes tt r taking place all da time…its stressful & depressing at times yea but it makes u stronger… but if it weakens u… den try to conc on the better side of life ba..

rite now… i m lost… in a world of confusion & helplessness … i cant go back & yet i cant move forward …

ar…tt song 再一遍 by 183 club is damm damm nice sia… mayb i m gg to buy their latest idol drama vcds…seem kinda nice & interesting… =)

………loads of hw piling up………zzzzzzzzzzz……..surveys undone…..zzzzzzz……… i need 2 revise !!!!!!! coz i dun realli understand … zzzzzzzzz…….. 我需要加油 !

* life’s nt abt the past , it maynt even b abt the present , its abt how u wan ya future to b & workin towards it *

潘玮柏 - 到时候再说

不让你皱一皱眉头　毫无保留只要开口无论如何等你回头　

不要轻易的说分手 让你去　走一走　不必给我正当理由我把爱　收一收　在左边胸口　紧紧的上锁把痛苦藏在墨镜背后　挡住所有陌生面孔

靠回忆　够不够　让人从寂寞中得救然而你　懂不懂　坚持的男人　还没有绝种我还在原地　没有移动　再见是不是白日梦

chorus:

我说过　绝不让你皱一皱眉头也说过　毫无保留只要你开口离开我　这样好吗　你只要一根指头　就能打动我我说过　无论如何等你回头也说过　谁都应该感动的承诺我还没　承认全军覆没等我等累的时候　一切到时候再说

潘玮柏 -  我们都会错

我慢慢的　跟着月亮一路往回走

夏天的风　吹在脸上感觉寂寞

我知道你　有几秒钟也想念他

我心疼你　但心中有点痛

chorus:

一个爱情习题　一种未完待续

一句在雨伞下你说的对不起

亲爱的我们都会错　我了解原因是什么 你不要哭　一切　我都晓得

你听时间　它一步一步往前走 你知道的到最后爱你的是我 你快乐吗　我心中只有这句话 我会把眼泪收在口袋中

chorus:

一个爱情习题　一种未完待续

一声在山谷中大喊的我爱你 亲爱的我们都会错　有什么不能原谅呢 没有关系　让我　等你回头 (chorus)

爱你的人　是我　不会错

罗志祥 - 灰色空间

原来不是白就是黑 只不过是天真的以为

要醉得清醒 要无辜的犯罪 现实的世界只有灰

坚强得太久好疲惫想抱爱的人沉沉的睡 卷来的风暴凶猛里有种美 死了心痛就没感觉

灰色空间我是谁 记不得幸福是什么滋味 无路可退你是谁怎么为我流泪

梦见发着光光的草原 一身伤回到很久以前 我选择不恨带着平静走 远醒来后遗憾是长夜

请抱着我流泪

距离 - 林俊杰

在距离三公里的位置
我在这里
想像心中的你的呼吸
同样的熄着灯的窗子
你在那里
听不到我呼吸着分离
我走向前你看不见
真的遥远
就连叹息影子听见
也是无言
你走向前我看不见
你的思念
你和我之间
刻着一条界线不曾有改变
music now
保留着三公分的距离
我的眼里
填满着整个我爱的你
坐在同一张四方桌子边
你的眼里
读不到眷着我的讯息
当爱离开之前
能多苦能多深能多甜
距离是你走过我身边

一路向北 - 周杰伦

后视镜里的世界
越来越远的道别
你转身向背
侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追
竟听见你的泪

在车窗外面排徊
是我错失的机会
你站的方位
跟我中间隔着泪
街景一直在后退
你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
你说你好累
已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹
过往的画面
全都是我不对
细数惭愧我伤你几回

后视镜里的世界
越来越远的道别
你转身向背
侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追
竟听见你的泪

在车窗外面排徊
是我错失的机会
你站的方位
跟我中间隔着泪
街景一直在后退
你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
方向盘周围
回转着我的后悔
我加速超越
却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲
细数惭愧我伤你几回
停止狼狈就让错纯粹

世界末日 - 周杰伦

想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头承认自己会怕黑
我只求能借一点的时间来陪
你却连同情都不给
想哭来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界好像只有我疲惫
无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰会不会
让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑梦违背
难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违

累不累睡不睡
单影无人相依偎
夜越黑梦违背
有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美

* lolx..i love all my songs ! *

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yup tuition was cancelled 4 todae..switched to thurs..lolx….diaos

haha…had some gd laugh todae actually..other than tt..its kinda sianz le…

lol..actualli i m tinkin tt u r awake but u din msg me ba…frm ya rxn juz now…tts wad i supposed yea…duno correct nt la..juz a hunch…lolx…it doesnt matter anyway…past le… aft i gt hm…wasnt tt sian le…dou the element of sian did nt waned totally…

so tired sia..bt duno can slp well nt tonite..din realli get a gdnite slp last nite…duno y…haix… life is complicating at times… humans r so… some ppl in this world…they juz gt too much time on their hand…they dun treasure wads realli impt…they bitch ard everywhere,they even tink tt they r the best…but to me,i tink they r a sad lot…coz they haven seen life…its nt juz abt criticising ,complaining,comparing & showing off or tryin to hold a strong front…tts so superficial…get a life yea. =)

* yawns… swt dreams to myself & every1 sound aslp rite nw * haha

got a scottish lecturer 4 my marketin module tis week..pengz..he juz read frm notes & nth else…lyk a si bee bee,droning on & on..lolx..sum ppl even left at the earli break at 3pm….zzzz

tuition was changed to tml…lolx

..went to best denki yest..lol…my pal wanna get a pda & a thumbdrive…so she buoght a thumbdrive in the end..haha…& i saw a laptop i lyk…hp de..nice lor…cool compact smart ! hey…pal..invest in me leh…buy it 4 me !! wahaha…u wun regret de.. =)

….my ulcers…argh..stil as bad as ever…heard tt drinkin orange juice n saltwater will better the condition yea ? so far…stil as bad…i juz started on orange juice todae…haha…mayb coz my love 4 choco is causin it ba..kekez..

a nice song by 183 club :

183club -再一遍

亲爱的宝贝
感谢你给过的一切
我们的誓言
已经没人再去纪念
我曾经以为
幸福会陪我直到永远
怎么在转眼的瞬间
你已经不见

只要再一遍
让我看你最后一眼
你的眼神
牵动我的灵魂
可否再一遍
让我感受你的体温
你的笑容温暖我的世界

某月某一天
你带走我给的一切
你把梦打碎
展现你的永不后悔
我曾经以为
我们的手会握到明天
哪知道转眼的时间
你已经走远

take me away and take my love away
没有你的夜晚是蒙昧
i’m miss you baby i wanna kiss you again
别对我说你看不见

…. * life’s such a coincidence at times * ….

yea..i cant please the world..every one is pissed wif me..my mum…other ppl…many ppl…wth…i m such a loser…

* juz let me die of my stress *

= CHORUS =

gosh..i woke up at ard 6.30am todae…Cui…so tired…gt lectures & then tuition…Cui…Cui…haha..but 1 tg well done is…we gt our project on a great start le..yea manz..gonna hand it in by tis fri..sot de la tt lecturer…

watched hard candy yest…stil ok la…nt bad…M18 it was…but i tink its censored ba…

…i m brain dead..tink mayb i m gettin too uptight wif my new bz schedule..been sumtime since i was tt bz…haha…wil try my best to manage de….gonna stop complaining..but i muz sae the lecturer 4 tis module…ar…is simply a bore..wahaha…

* hope i can cope wif the changes in my life *